i am only as hardcore as hannah has taught me to be

All day today i was extremely tired and dozey, especially in Calvin class. I had to wake up early to go to an elementary school and administer a reading assessment to a first grader, and i guess i just stayed tired all day. And sometime between the end of XA and right now i decided the best solution would be to pull and all nighter with hannah...

hannah is the original hardcore non-sleeper. this girl is a beast. she doesnt eat anything but pizza rolls. she doesnt excersize but has rock hard abs. she doesnt sleep at all during the week but has survived the engineering school for 4 years without being put on academic probation. Kinda takes your breath away, doesnt it? So here i am supposedly doing a childrens book review while homegirl is doing a differential equations test. ha. life is so crazy isnt it!

i talked to my friend leonard a second ago on aim. in less than 3 minutes, i learned that he is getting a job doing political campaigning for fossil fuels somewhere outside the region, an my friend gen, who just returned from a year in uganda, is applying for a fullbright scholarship to study in paris. peachy. i suddenly feel like my life is boring, because im just sitting in charlottesville doing my college thing. the highlight of my day is reading what monica writes on her blog (which is a highlight indeed, believe me!). im going to be a first grade teacher and they are going to...do something. well i doubt either of them are pulling all nighters...

but im not going to go into self loathing or even whining. i think something that immediately snaps me out of life-envy is to realize that even though their lives are so exotic, they dont have jesus so their lives arent any more awesome than mine. not that im saying im better than they are. im just saying, it doesnt matter how many people they might save when they cure hunger or something crazy like that, because if people arent delivered from sin it doesnt really matter what happens in this lifetime. so basically, im just gonna keep doing my god thing and he will take me where he wants. im so relieved to think about how i dont have to do anything on my own and hes gonna take me bigger places than i can imagine just because i love him. oh man.

basically i need to go finish my book review in preparation for a 5 am run with the sunrise :)

goodnight to you. not to me!