Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving! I really like thanksgiving. its one of the holidays i look forward to most, especially being away at school, because i can legitimately sit around in my pajamas and eat all day and watch tv and not feel guilty about it later. because everyone knows you cant do homework on thanksgiving, and all the calories consumed dont really count...duh.

so let me premise my thoughts by saying that i am a stickler for tradition. scratch that- lets expand it to consistency. i hate change, and i dont like trying new things or being adventurous (except for sometimes) and i really just dont like change at all. and this is most strongly manifested during holidays. there are just certain things that are supposed to happen during certain holidays- you are supposed to have a christmas tree with white lights, an angel, and hallmark ornaments at christmas. youre supposed to watch the macys parade as soon as you wake up thanksgiving morning. i have to have deluxe macaroni and cheese for easter dinner. sure, these are little things to most people, but (maybe sadly enough?) they are foundational for my life. i cant go without them or my whole pattern and basically my whole life is just messed up if it changes.

and then this thanksgiving happened.

this year there are a lot of new things happening. in fact, for the whole time ive been in college things have been changing a lot, and its made me really uncomfortable but the fact that ive been able to run back to charlottesville before i was too affected made it ok. except now all this change is encroaching on my holidays, and im not ok with it. so i came home a little grumpy about this whole situation. perfect attitude for thanksgiving, huh?

and then i went to church wednesday night and had this revelation that whats been wrong with me lately is that ive been focused on my problems. ive had a realy difficult past few weeks with the whole ben situation, like really hard, and thats been weighing on me. so ive been distracted with that, among other things. but ie just been dwelling on it. and its not like there isnt time for that, because its ok. but it distracts my eyes from god, and if i could look at him and realize the blessings i have, even just in salvation (which isnt a "just") then i would be more thankful and less..devestated by my changing holidays.

just a thought!

e.r. time. and more cheese ball beckons!

happy thanksgiving!