happyelectionday

I havent posted in a long time, and its a little crazy that i feel guilty about it. but i think its not just that i havent posted, its that ive been disconnected from a lot of people i normally talk to. like you, miss moneekuh. up until about 2 weeks ago i talked to you every day, we havent had a real conversation since. im not the biggest fan. i havent talked to kathryn either, or robster, and i havent called back my friend jason who bought a bible and wanted to know whether or not it was a good translation. i need to call some people i think. i dont know what ive spent my time doing. oh well.

so as for God, i basically have been realizing how little i've made him, and ive realized that in the context of my boy obsession, which im trying to repress. so remember that one time i said i had a crush on a boy that i shouldnt? yeah, you know who im talking about. well, i did decide i needed to leave it, and i have for the most part, like through my actions, but i havent figured out how to let it go heart-wise. and i've been so concerned with that, and so concerned with repressing it, that all my prayers have been focused on me and that and blah blah blah. so then yesterday i got a little view of that and prayed that God would give me a view of how big he is, and he answered immediately, because at XA they not only announced our spring missions trips locations (which i definitely will be going on, because its my passion! ) but we had a missionary from uganda, who is the mom of my XA friends, and she works to counsel the kids who live in the displacement camps and have been kidnapped by the LRA and have just done horrible things. like, she showed us an interview, and one of the girls was kidnapped at 9, forced to pray to a demon, and they forced her to kill 3 people including her dad. i cant even imagine.
-if you dont know anything about the LRA and uganda and such, than watch "Invisible Children," or google search the Lords Resistance Army in Uganda. please. i feel like everyone needs at least an awareness, even if you dont have a particular burden for it.
anyways, God just showed me how much bigger his plan is than what i see, and it helped put my whole dating/marriage/life dilemma into perspective. so. its all good i suppose. but still hard to try to direct my thoughts away from mr. adorable to God. ya know?

ps- i told my mom i wanted to marry a black man, and she was NOT excited or minimally amused. not at all. i need to pray about that.

i also need a quiet spirit. i feel like my energy is too much sometimes. its hard to explain.

anyways, life is good. basically, i feel like another thing monica and i cant talk about, in addition to my most recent past relationship, is politics. basically, i feel like voting is so incredibly important even if you dont feel strongly. oh man. and im a republican for the most part. great. ps- how funny would it be if someone won on a write in? i feel like we should just agree on someone to write in, and then see what happens. like jesus. lets all write in jesus. hahaha.

sorry this wasnt more interesting. i'll work on it, hun.

if youre looking for something amazing to cheer you up, go to www.happyfeetmovie.com and watch all 6 of the trailers. its crazy how addictively cute they are. im counting down to the movie release date!

homework time.