O God, hold them now

There's a lot to process. right now, I've got a few threads of thought that, I'm sure, resonate with everyone elses. I was praying yesterday morning around 6:15am that God would break my heart for what breaks his. and he would. and I read psalm 62. it was the context for my thoughts yesterday:

"For God along my soul waits in silence, from him comes my salvation. He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken"
its easy to be strong when you are the one afflicted. i know that god's grace is sufficient, and when i go through painful times, i can be completely broken down and still rely on god. its hard in the middle of it, but its so good and god restores everything. but when i have to apply that to other people? its hard for me to tell other people not to be shaken. that god is their fortress. i dont question it, its just a lot more painful to process.

"How long will all of you attack a man to batter him, like a leaning wall, a tottering fence? they only plan to thrust him down from his high position. they take pleasure in falsehood, the bless with their mouths, but inwardly they curse."

"For god alone, o my soul. wait in silence, for my hope is from him. he only is my rock and my salvation. my fortress; i will not be shaken. on god rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is god."

"trust in him at all times, o people; pour out your heart before him; god is a refuge for us."
so what is a christian to do now? i want to be active. i want to feel the pain. i want to give something, do something, provide, feed, die for...anything but look on. but i need to sit and trust on behalf of everyone who is really at the end of theimselves. god is a god who knows intimately the breadth and depth of human emotion. he knows the pain of everyone who is grieving, even if i dont but i want to so badly. so just praying. what for? i dont know. that god would be sufficient. confessing trust over everyone involved. i havent figured it out. but praying. if i really believe that god provides everything we need, that he tends to our greatest needs first, then i should apply it to everyone outside of myself.

i'll remove myself and take a back seat to the pain, entrusting the victims to god. and i'll pray this over them:

O God, hold me now.
O Lord, hold me now.
There's no other man who can raise the dead.
So do what You can to annoint my head.
O God, where are you now?
O Lord, say somehow.

Da da da, da da da.

O God, hold me now.
O God, touch me now.
There's no other man who could save the day.
There's no other God who could raise the dead.